My husband and my step-son have been gone for the past week. I was at girls camp last week acting as a counselor. Now my husband and step-son are at boyscout camp. I'm so bored I don't know what to do with myself. I went to the bay area today and visited my mother. I treated her to a movie, and she picked up lunch for us. It was nice becuase I haven't been able to do that in a long time. Oddly enough I noticed a connection of sorts with us. In the middle of the movie for no reason at all I got the sensation to shake my hand... She asked me what was wrong? I told her that my hand was asleep. It wasn't really asleep, I don't know what gave me that odd sensation to shake it... She told me her hand fell asleep too... weird.
It scares me how much in common I have with my mother. Not so much that I fear I'm turning into her, more so that I'm scared to get her health problems. She has lupus and has a bad time with her kidneys. I've had constant bladder infections for the past 3 years, ever since she began dialysis. I really hope I'm not going to suffer the way she has.
The only thing I have to fall back on is that I'm trying to live healthier than she had. I don't drink or smoke, and I try not to let the stresses of relationships get to me. I don't go to bars, I only care about my family...
Hopefully that will take care of health issues. I don't know though... I'm still worried.
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