I don't want to be in my skin much. I'm not very happy over some stupid family drama that involves David's family. There are some people that I don't like and judgmental bullies that decide to tear down other people are certainly in that category.
David is running for Congress. I love the fact that I married a man with ambition and drive. I don't care if he doesn't win. I don't care if he doesn't get but a couple of votes. Yes I'll be a bit disappointed. Not disappointed in him, but disappointed in the fact that the average man has a hard time getting other average men voting for him.
I still miss my mother. I had a dream with her in it, it's really quite unforgettable. I was all by myself crying, and she came to me and said, "Why are you so sad?" and I told her, "Because I didn't get to make you happy". And she said, "It wasn't your job to make me happy". And I was still crying and I told her, "But I didn't have a chance to do anything to make you proud of me". And she returned, "You made me proud of you everyday". In my dream it made me feel better. But whenever I think about the dream I get emotional and it makes me cry. I wish I still had that kind of support in my life. I would never get that from David's family. I could get it from my step mom but I don't think it's quite the same. I really wanted to make something of myself to my mother. I wanted her to see that she raised me and I was able to be successful because of her.
Now that I think about it it's kind of ironic. David is running for Congress. How many people can say that about their husbands, or their kids? And my Husband is taking on a huge project and attempting to make a success of himself. And his father can't say one nice thing about it? It's funny how Gerald can run down his own son. His own flesh and blood, whom he raised, and not think about how he should have a little bit of pride in raising an ambitious son. Idiot.
My mother told me how proud she was of me for the simplest of things, and his father can't be proud of him for showing initiative and ambition? In the interim, I think that it's just that same thing, where the father is jealous of the sons accomplishments and he has to run him down just to make him feel better. Yes it happens all the time. And men have something to prove to make their sons feel small and insignificant. Dave and I already said we wouldn't raise our son that way. At least I try to make sure Dave is aware of that. I make sure to tell my Husband how he should tell his Son he is proud of him. It makes Jarret feel better, especially when he tries his hardest to do something. It's funny how perfect strangers can tell your son how they are proud of him, and yet it practically chokes a father to tell a son that. I'm glad I'm not a boy.
OH yes the family has been waking up every weekday at 5 am and jogging. Well the boys jog, I just walk. We have to get up this early because it's always hot here in the valley, and at least at 5 in the morning it's cool enough to do the exercise. Any time after the sun rises, you're really gambling because it gets too hot. Even after 6 or 7 it will start to get muggy and hot. I'm proud of our family for doing that. It all started because we were trying to figure out punishments for Jarret. We came to a point where we couldn't take anything else away from the kid. And I'm sorry for those who practice this method, but Time Out for a teenager is stupid. Seriously, go sit in the corner or bedroom for 13 minutes? Ooh better not get in trouble. And of course we don't hit our kid. After a certain age, hitting is really just abuse. The age where they can think and reason and speak is a good time to stop. So running was perfect. He tires himself out. And after a few scrapes and being told he'd have to run extra laps, he got the idea not to lie, not to skip out on homework, not to do things that required punishment. And not only does it work because kids don't like running laps, but it works because he is building up his stamina and growing muscle. It's a win win situation. I'm really quite proud of us for coming up with this punishment.
And that's all that's going on so far.
David is running for Congress. I love the fact that I married a man with ambition and drive. I don't care if he doesn't win. I don't care if he doesn't get but a couple of votes. Yes I'll be a bit disappointed. Not disappointed in him, but disappointed in the fact that the average man has a hard time getting other average men voting for him.
I still miss my mother. I had a dream with her in it, it's really quite unforgettable. I was all by myself crying, and she came to me and said, "Why are you so sad?" and I told her, "Because I didn't get to make you happy". And she said, "It wasn't your job to make me happy". And I was still crying and I told her, "But I didn't have a chance to do anything to make you proud of me". And she returned, "You made me proud of you everyday". In my dream it made me feel better. But whenever I think about the dream I get emotional and it makes me cry. I wish I still had that kind of support in my life. I would never get that from David's family. I could get it from my step mom but I don't think it's quite the same. I really wanted to make something of myself to my mother. I wanted her to see that she raised me and I was able to be successful because of her.
Now that I think about it it's kind of ironic. David is running for Congress. How many people can say that about their husbands, or their kids? And my Husband is taking on a huge project and attempting to make a success of himself. And his father can't say one nice thing about it? It's funny how Gerald can run down his own son. His own flesh and blood, whom he raised, and not think about how he should have a little bit of pride in raising an ambitious son. Idiot.
My mother told me how proud she was of me for the simplest of things, and his father can't be proud of him for showing initiative and ambition? In the interim, I think that it's just that same thing, where the father is jealous of the sons accomplishments and he has to run him down just to make him feel better. Yes it happens all the time. And men have something to prove to make their sons feel small and insignificant. Dave and I already said we wouldn't raise our son that way. At least I try to make sure Dave is aware of that. I make sure to tell my Husband how he should tell his Son he is proud of him. It makes Jarret feel better, especially when he tries his hardest to do something. It's funny how perfect strangers can tell your son how they are proud of him, and yet it practically chokes a father to tell a son that. I'm glad I'm not a boy.
OH yes the family has been waking up every weekday at 5 am and jogging. Well the boys jog, I just walk. We have to get up this early because it's always hot here in the valley, and at least at 5 in the morning it's cool enough to do the exercise. Any time after the sun rises, you're really gambling because it gets too hot. Even after 6 or 7 it will start to get muggy and hot. I'm proud of our family for doing that. It all started because we were trying to figure out punishments for Jarret. We came to a point where we couldn't take anything else away from the kid. And I'm sorry for those who practice this method, but Time Out for a teenager is stupid. Seriously, go sit in the corner or bedroom for 13 minutes? Ooh better not get in trouble. And of course we don't hit our kid. After a certain age, hitting is really just abuse. The age where they can think and reason and speak is a good time to stop. So running was perfect. He tires himself out. And after a few scrapes and being told he'd have to run extra laps, he got the idea not to lie, not to skip out on homework, not to do things that required punishment. And not only does it work because kids don't like running laps, but it works because he is building up his stamina and growing muscle. It's a win win situation. I'm really quite proud of us for coming up with this punishment.
And that's all that's going on so far.
